✙ previous life and calling

Before I started my life as a hermit, I used to be a rational and successful (or at least: well paid) lawyer, writer, and business advisor. Resisting God’s call during fifteen long stubborn years.

So… what happened?

Truth be told: my parents left the Church when I was still in my pre-teens. But ever since I had retained this academic interest in God and religion. Could it be true?

Then one day, unexpectedly, God (+) acted and let me experience more of Himself than I had ever imagined Him to be. It changed me, completely. But my rational old-self soon took over again, and I ran away from what I couldn’t understand, couldn’t believe to be true, and - frankly - didn’t have the courage for.

I mean: I liked my life as a successful and well paid young professional. So I had no intention whatsoever of surrendering my success, my income, my status, and my possessions to…? Exactly… to what? To Whom...? Why?! Therefore I kept my rational skepticism, my wilful disregard for God's presence, and my fear as high as I possibly could, and I ran away. And while running for fifteen long years, I considered myself successful and lucky. But I now know better. In retrospect, I was the mule mentioned in psalm 32. And it was a stupid waste of time.

Because even though I am now subsisting on a small fraction of what I used to earn, the moments of solitude proof to be a true godsend and when combined with an inner and outer silence it becomes a blessing.

Apparently, God (+) knew what was best for me right from the start. And I can only thank Him for His love, His patience, and His perseverance with me. Because fortunately He waited for me during all those fifteen years, respecting my free will, until I finally surrendered to Him.

So He won. For He was right, and I was wrong. All along.

You can read more about this, and about my daily schedule, on the next page.